This LOVE is taking all of ME.

Yes, I know it's been a month but please don't get mad at me. I was just busy doing a lot of things. Things that would help me release the stress and pain - [ouch]. Yah know, I'm still not over him. I still, am inlove to him [pity me].

First semester has ended and I got to say, It's BORING. I'm bored staying here at our house for 1 whole day, what else for 3 weeks? [damn!].

Anyways, it was my birthday last October 11. Not to mention, I'm already 18! Gawd, I'm getting older :((. Btw, I had a blast. Although, there are some friends of mine, who weren't able to come, I still enjoyed it. My highschool friends was there, I miss them so much, even though we always see each other every weekend, I still miss them. hahaha. My college friends was also present. And I was able to introduce my HS and College friends together :D. It was a blast really. My celebration ended at 5:00 a.m [hahahaha]. Not to mention I got drunk :)).

Speaking of drunky-ness. This past few days, I can't help myself from drinking, alcohol of course. I'm not used in drinking alcohol, but I just can't stop it. And because of that, I always get drunk, my friends told me so :)). And thankfully they were there to manage me. The first time I got drunk was because of Dee. The second time, again because of Dee. The third time, because it is my birthday and yet, its still because of Dee. Why does it have to be Dee?! He's taking all of my energy. I hate me. I'm being stupid na :((. Tanga na ako, nagpapakatanga pa ko sa kanya. I want to let go, but I can't. Something is telling me, not to let go. And I won't until my last teardrop fall :(.

KEVIN said these words to me. And I got to admit, I'm being so unfair na sa sarili ko, lalo na sa kanya. He's still waiting, and I'm still not giving any answer. I hate me, for real.

signed off at; 3:27 AM.
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