I Hate Myself
Monday, September 22, 2008
"How can I possibly forget you, when everywhere I go you're there and everything you do makes me feel that I'm so special. Maybe I was just blinded by my own fantasy and making myself believe that it was meant to be. At least, somehow it was. But it never happened and will never be."
Gawd, I'm actually not in the perfect mood to update. After I realized how STUPID I was these past few days, believing that there's something magical or maybe even better. But all of it was just "make-believes". But I can't undo anything now, damaged has been done and only me can repair it, but when? I just can't find the way to start things on my own. I can't just possibly forget about him eventually. He's on my mind, everyday, even when I don't want to see him, he's there lingering at the very corners of mind. Damn. I hate myself, I just hate ME.
Why does it have to be him?
