I Can't be.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Okay, first and foremost I would like to say to myself "WELCOME BACK!" whew! I missed blogging! It was like 2 weeks that I didn't updated my blog. well, life's been busy these past weeks I've been training very hard for our Major Performance at Binyag Arriba. And also, I also had a summer getaway with my friends last Monday! and that is my major topic for this post.
Last Monday we had our summer getaway at Culab in Laguna (I hate this place. hmpf!). I'm not going to tell the full details about what I've done during our outing or to sum it all up I will only tell the MOST important details which I'd like to include in this post.
Okay, so here goes.
First, we arrived at around 3:30 p.m and from that time we prepared everything (change clothes, prepared the food, etc.) then some of my friends (oh, I forgot to mention there were 11 of us who had our outing) went to swim already! (those bastards, they didn't even helped us out in almost everything! particularly the boys!! aargh!). So, after that we also followed them and marielle and mike was the one left to guard our cottage (they're lovers actually.) Back to the swimming part, as we were playing, wrestling, and drowning each other I saw this guy sitting beside the pool, all alone, STARING at us! (actually I don't know if he's actually staring at us or one of us.) Then I told Sarah and Angel bout this guy and both of them are getting bitchy already! (those bitch!). And there it is, they liked the guy (I admit it, he was kinda cute, he was like a model, white skin, nice hair, etc. and I'm also getting bitchy at that moment but I'm not YET in love with him! okay!?) So, the four of us were left at the pool because of this GUY, we want to get his attention but our technique seems like nothing to him he was just there, sitting and nothing else! but there's this moment that I caught his eyes on us! (again, I don't know if it's on us or one of us.) and again we became so bitchy again! Okay enough! The guy stood up and gone like the wind that we didn't even notice (guess he's hard to get huh?) and we went to our cottage to eat.
After that, it's around 5:00 p.m and we had our (lunch or dinner? WHATEVER!) and while we were eating, (OMG! you guessed it right!) the guy that me and my friends are loving to see were just beside our cottage with his friends! and we ran out of our minds and we were like going crazy because of him closer to us!. Okay, so we were eating then but our eyes was on him everytime we eat a piece of our meal. and Jester (who's he?) was getting sleepy already so I pulled his hand and went to the pool! (he's such a snob!) and my friends started cheering our names together and I don't even know why. (okay, jester is just my FRIEND! got it? I don't know bout him, but for me he's only a friend forget the past already!). So, where was I? oh yeah, so they cheered and I was like (what the heck?) and I saw jester smiling (it was like 99 years ago that I last saw him smile, just kidding. but he really do smile often.) and I asked him why he was smiling and then the smiling face of his just turned to the snobby face again! and he walked out right in front of me! (arrgh! I can't take his attitude anymore!). So I was left in the pool, ALONE. I swim and swim and swim for a couple of minutes. My friend's are dancing and playing and sleeping at the cottage coz it was dark already, I think 8:00 in the evening that is. But for me I was just there swimming, back to the cottage, and swim again I was in hell during that time coz of JESTER!. and then, the guy suddenly came to swim also! and I was shocked because there were just 4 of us who are swimming the other two somebody I don't know and I was thinking myself up if I would go to our cottage or just stay here with the guy! but I decided to stay (GO! go for the goal SHIN!).
And so I stayed with him (oh! how romantic! SHUT UP SHIN! you didn't even know him!.)
The night was so cold and the night was so quiet and I was like (damn! he's hot!) hahaha!. All I did was to swim here, there, and there and I also used the slide, speaking of slide he actually spoke to me there!! (oh, how I wish there was a camera during that time to capture my moment!).
So that was my moment! too bad I forgot to ask his name. But he's a liar, he said he didn't went up there to slide but after I slid down he also slid down! and after that
HE SMILED AT ME!.
After sometime, angel, sarah, mich and yhen came to disturb my prolong romance and they were murmuring with each other and I was just there laughing my ass off to them coz I scored! (GO shin!) suddenly they asked me.
I woke up at around 3:00 a.m and those bitches are still awake and they got to know the name of the guy! his name was Ezekiel (nice name.) and they said that they got to talk to him for so long while I was sleeping (oh, pity me.) but forget the guy. My mind was stuck in what they said about Jester while I was in the pool yet (before I slept.) and from that moment I was like stuck in the past. Out of my mind, I suddenly saw Ezekiel along with the bitches (those bitches really got him huh.) and I heard my name out of their conversation! THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT ME!!! But I didn't come to them coz I might come out as "Papansin" if I do that.
So it's time to go. It's 4:00 a.m already and we have to go and Ezekiel and his friends also has to go. So we took care of our things (shower, change clothes, trash our trash [huh?], etc.) and went to the van of Jester (rich kiddo huh.) and went home! On the road to our homes I asked Sarah bout what they are talking about Ezekiel and I told her that I heard my name on their conversation and she said that thay gave my no. to Ezekiel! (yeah were txtm8's right now!) and some other things they also told Ezekiel bout my PROFILE! (age, where I live, where I go to school, etc.) and I was freaking mad coz they spilled everything bout me! And Angel pinch me and said to look at Jester's face and I stopped because I saw his face with nothing on it, pale, sad, hopeless...
From then On.. I keep on asking myself why..
Why?
And another feeling stroke my heart. and asked myself Am I in Love again?
haha.. Can't be, I promised myself never to fall in Love again.
I promised myself not to make the same mistake twice.
But...
What's this feeling?
Is it just Confusion or Regrets?
That's all for my third post. (very sad isn't it? well that's how my lovelife is.)
KAWAII!
PS. Changed my Layout.
Last Monday we had our summer getaway at Culab in Laguna (I hate this place. hmpf!). I'm not going to tell the full details about what I've done during our outing or to sum it all up I will only tell the MOST important details which I'd like to include in this post.
Okay, so here goes.
First, we arrived at around 3:30 p.m and from that time we prepared everything (change clothes, prepared the food, etc.) then some of my friends (oh, I forgot to mention there were 11 of us who had our outing) went to swim already! (those bastards, they didn't even helped us out in almost everything! particularly the boys!! aargh!). So, after that we also followed them and marielle and mike was the one left to guard our cottage (they're lovers actually.) Back to the swimming part, as we were playing, wrestling, and drowning each other I saw this guy sitting beside the pool, all alone, STARING at us! (actually I don't know if he's actually staring at us or one of us.) Then I told Sarah and Angel bout this guy and both of them are getting bitchy already! (those bitch!). And there it is, they liked the guy (I admit it, he was kinda cute, he was like a model, white skin, nice hair, etc. and I'm also getting bitchy at that moment but I'm not YET in love with him! okay!?) So, the four of us were left at the pool because of this GUY, we want to get his attention but our technique seems like nothing to him he was just there, sitting and nothing else! but there's this moment that I caught his eyes on us! (again, I don't know if it's on us or one of us.) and again we became so bitchy again! Okay enough! The guy stood up and gone like the wind that we didn't even notice (guess he's hard to get huh?) and we went to our cottage to eat.
After that, it's around 5:00 p.m and we had our (lunch or dinner? WHATEVER!) and while we were eating, (OMG! you guessed it right!) the guy that me and my friends are loving to see were just beside our cottage with his friends! and we ran out of our minds and we were like going crazy because of him closer to us!. Okay, so we were eating then but our eyes was on him everytime we eat a piece of our meal. and Jester (who's he?) was getting sleepy already so I pulled his hand and went to the pool! (he's such a snob!) and my friends started cheering our names together and I don't even know why. (okay, jester is just my FRIEND! got it? I don't know bout him, but for me he's only a friend forget the past already!). So, where was I? oh yeah, so they cheered and I was like (what the heck?) and I saw jester smiling (it was like 99 years ago that I last saw him smile, just kidding. but he really do smile often.) and I asked him why he was smiling and then the smiling face of his just turned to the snobby face again! and he walked out right in front of me! (arrgh! I can't take his attitude anymore!). So I was left in the pool, ALONE. I swim and swim and swim for a couple of minutes. My friend's are dancing and playing and sleeping at the cottage coz it was dark already, I think 8:00 in the evening that is. But for me I was just there swimming, back to the cottage, and swim again I was in hell during that time coz of JESTER!. and then, the guy suddenly came to swim also! and I was shocked because there were just 4 of us who are swimming the other two somebody I don't know and I was thinking myself up if I would go to our cottage or just stay here with the guy! but I decided to stay (GO! go for the goal SHIN!).
And so I stayed with him (oh! how romantic! SHUT UP SHIN! you didn't even know him!.)
The night was so cold and the night was so quiet and I was like (damn! he's hot!) hahaha!. All I did was to swim here, there, and there and I also used the slide, speaking of slide he actually spoke to me there!! (oh, how I wish there was a camera during that time to capture my moment!).
Guy: Go on first.
Me: No, why don't you go first. Besides, your the one who got up here first.
Guy: Actually I didn't went up here to slide. I just came here to see the view down below.
Me: Okay, thx.
So that was my moment! too bad I forgot to ask his name. But he's a liar, he said he didn't went up there to slide but after I slid down he also slid down! and after that
HE SMILED AT ME!.
After sometime, angel, sarah, mich and yhen came to disturb my prolong romance and they were murmuring with each other and I was just there laughing my ass off to them coz I scored! (GO shin!) suddenly they asked me.
Sarah: Shin, what about Jester?So, my romance was cut off immediately. and I went to our cottage and slept not knowing that jester was the one who's beside me (kc nmn! nakatakip ng tuwalya ang mukha nya kaya di ko alam na sya un!). So, something did happen bet. me and jester in the past (hey, its not what you think it is.) but that was like when I was in highschool pa so don't mind about it okay? It hurts a LOT. hehe. But he said that it was not true and I don't know what to believe in. (Okay, Im spilling everything na! Enough.)
Me: huh? what about him?
Sarah: Hmmm.. playing like you don't know anything huh?
(w8, ang hirap mag translate e. TAGALUGIN NA NGA NATIN!)
Me: loko-loko, matagal na un!
Angel: Maarte ka! halata nmn na ilang pa din sya sau e!
Mich: Seryoso, gusto mo pa sya?
Angel: Hindi nmn kc totoo un e! (sorry peepz, it's confidential e. haha!)
Me: Ah, basta! Manahimik na lng kau!
I woke up at around 3:00 a.m and those bitches are still awake and they got to know the name of the guy! his name was Ezekiel (nice name.) and they said that they got to talk to him for so long while I was sleeping (oh, pity me.) but forget the guy. My mind was stuck in what they said about Jester while I was in the pool yet (before I slept.) and from that moment I was like stuck in the past. Out of my mind, I suddenly saw Ezekiel along with the bitches (those bitches really got him huh.) and I heard my name out of their conversation! THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT ME!!! But I didn't come to them coz I might come out as "Papansin" if I do that.
So it's time to go. It's 4:00 a.m already and we have to go and Ezekiel and his friends also has to go. So we took care of our things (shower, change clothes, trash our trash [huh?], etc.) and went to the van of Jester (rich kiddo huh.) and went home! On the road to our homes I asked Sarah bout what they are talking about Ezekiel and I told her that I heard my name on their conversation and she said that thay gave my no. to Ezekiel! (yeah were txtm8's right now!) and some other things they also told Ezekiel bout my PROFILE! (age, where I live, where I go to school, etc.) and I was freaking mad coz they spilled everything bout me! And Angel pinch me and said to look at Jester's face and I stopped because I saw his face with nothing on it, pale, sad, hopeless...
From then On.. I keep on asking myself why..
Why?
And another feeling stroke my heart. and asked myself Am I in Love again?
haha.. Can't be, I promised myself never to fall in Love again.
I promised myself not to make the same mistake twice.
But...
What's this feeling?
Is it just Confusion or Regrets?
That's all for my third post. (very sad isn't it? well that's how my lovelife is.)
KAWAII!
PS. Changed my Layout.
